Indecisive
Drake_rihanna

With the back to school commercials starting back up and me suddenly changing my career path to unknown I couldn't help but wonder why your heart and head can never seem to see eye to eye. I knew I wanted to do hair because it was something I liked, I would be in my career quickly and it wouldn't take that much of my time but when the time comes bam! I don't know if that's what I actually want to do with the rest of my life. My head says that it's more stable, and right now with money issues everything in this country stable is good. But the trial continues with my heart on the witness stand saying that for a fact what I like to do more is write and be creative, and use my words to get things across.

I'm not the kind of person who has work five days a week from nine to five and has a schedule, somewhere I always need to be. I like to do things in my own time, to figure it out as I go. But the brain doesn't rest, where's the money in writing? If your not a paid writer for a magazine or newspaper or a bestselling author then how can you expect yourself to make a career out of it? But life itsn't all about money. When it comes to matters of the heart is it every ok to listen to your head?

I would be lying if I said my sudden desicion change had nothing to do with my boyfriend talking about his own college experiences that had me thinking about my future career, or lack thereof. This is life, the future, how you make ends meet, you can't just keep changing your mind about something that important. Part of me just says go to hair school, it's quick, it's cheap bada bing your done with a full time job.

But is that it? Would you really want to be in your career so soon? To not have a choice to explore other things that you may like better? And could I really see myself doing something so mundane when I'm forty? To me writing is something that I don't just enjoy, I truly love. It helps me sort out all of the junk I store up in my head in a way that I can spin with whatever metaphors I damn well please. I like the idea of being able to get paid for something I love to do. Is there anything better? When it comes to matters of the mind does your heart ever have a say?



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